The reason to seek connection with your truest self is not because you have to to be worthy, or good, or deserving. The wonderful soul self at the core of who you ARE is all of those things and more, whether you are currently connected to it or not.
The reason, the ONLY reason, to reach for connection is so your life feels good to YOU. That's it. Period.
So, relax. Anytime you try connecting, it matters. But don't make connecting with YOU another thing to beat yourself up for.
Reach for gentleness. Kindness. Softness. Encouragement. Appreciation. When you can, give those gifts to yourself. Or don't. Either way, you are ALWAYS worthy, beautiful, deserving, and loved.